I can't sleep yet. so i'm gnna blog again. once again, a thought to share.



Sometimes or maybe all the time, nobody really understands how you feel. You feel like you're doing your best toschieve something, and whenyou are about to, something crops up. Which is really, really disheartening.If you have never felt how it feels like to be gived up on, the word terrible still isn't enough to express how it feels. Someone gives up on you, many people give up on you, your loved ones, your family, your friends. People you relied on for as long as you lived, or as long as the first day you ever spoke to them gives up on you, you would probably give up too. Lay there and wait for the time to pass, what does the world mean to you anymore anyway? you see everyone else getting full support from others, everyone around you. You reflect, and yes indeed it waas your fault, it was your mistake. What are youto do now? Prove them wrong? too late. too late.


What can you do now? Nothing eh? You can't move on you can't turn back, you know how it feels? Its easy to tell someone you gave up on this person, but to take it in, its difficult. You not only lost all your motivation, but you also have to face judgment. You have to accept that harsh reality that they dont care about you anymore. All you did or all you may ever do dont matter anymore, to them at least. Life stops here. It really does.



Just try to feel this feeling, put all the " but its your fault what." aside. Feel it. Just feel it.





I'm sorry lord for the thing I've made it, when its all about you, its all about you Jesus. 11:13 PM