Firstly, my dear dear tan weird juanne, i know things are difficult for you now, and trust me I know exactly how you feel. I still love him alot now too, but hey what can I do about it right? All I can do is, see him, smile and pretend i'm alright, everything's under control. I can still laugh with all of you and yeah maybe i'll like suddenly cry during english lessons esp. hahahaa but hey, now i know who really cares and who really dont. Right? And i'm glad that you're coping well, strong girl. :D I love you okay, be strong and you shouldn't really try to get close to him. Unless you're ready to take another blow well I can say i'm not ready. I am still trying to get over him, I've learnt to let go, he'll find someone better than me and he'll be happier this way. And if he's glad, I am too. And you should think that way. You deserve better dear girl. Really. Now you still have us! Isn't that great? :D hold on, be strong. I love you. (:



Anyway I wanna grow up to be an assassin. hahaha. I was holding a pen knife today kinda look creepy haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I was like " i'm gnna kill someone" but I dont really mean it lol. Ah, and jasper please study harder. hahaa. and class was weird today, got two scoldings. english class there was this major breakdown thing. Juanne cried during FTP, then english Ltan said" marraige" I broke down, the people arnd me were shocked cause they thought i'm like so over it alrdd but i'm not. shirley cried with me too. ah shirley! love ya. and wenhui tried to kill me with his "gun" today which looked somewhat like a calculator but I killed him first. haaa and zane did a wide smile thing which really made me smile lol. its funny. hhh wanted to cheer juanne up and he was like" need me do audition dance? " hahahaa.junyuan shared his life story with juanne which really is encouraging. seriously it helped me. I guess it helped her too. nice people all around see? And, huiting didn't seem happy today. Huiting! pop alrd should be happy lah! love you! and liza! hahaaa, nth is wrong but, love you. haaa. I hope everything will just become the way it used to be. But its impossible now, its okay. at least they were nice memories. At least we lived and enjoyed that few months of our lifes. All that matters now is, friends. They're like great people with great compassion.



Life's tough but we;ve gotta learn to hold on and get over it. I was being stupid about the knife thing, fisho. when I think about it now, lol i would have regretted if i died. Life's still a bed of roses. Just dont focus on the thorns. ( am i making sense? :D)



Love,
jiehui





WAIT a quiz.
1)When will the sun not shine and when will the world end ?
I can't make the sun not shine. My love world kinda ended. Friendship world? brand new start.
2)What do you want most now?
Go to the beach and play. Play.
3)Do you believe in your best friends ?
Well, yeeah. I do.
4)Do you hate the world sometimes?
Yeap.
5)When do you wish to die ?
I leave this up to god, whatever his decision is, i'll just die willingly.
6)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain ?
yes..
7)What impossible things you would do ?
impossible? then why will i still do it? lol.
8)Do you believe in eternity love ?
Tough question.
9)Have you broken someone's heart until he/she tried to commit suicide ?
idk, i mean will they tell me they wanna die? lol.
10)What are the requirements you wished for your other half to have ?
i answered this before.
11)What feeling you hate the most ?
"
12)Do you cherish every friendship of yours ?
yes, hell yess.
13)Is there anything you are looking forward to in a few weeks time ?
jamming! i want my voice back.
14)What feeling you love the most?
answered before.
15)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
It doesn't really matter now, does it?
16)Who do you hope to be always there for you ?
everyone who cares.
17)Do you find life meaningless ?
not really. at times, yeah.
18)Who do you love the most ?
everyone, no " most" its all equal now.
19)What's your latest injury?
ooh i kicked a stone slab and it like, cut me?
20)Who did you chat with just now ?
juannnnne.
21)How retarded can you get ?
ultimum. lol.



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