Hello world, I am feeling a little happier today. Ah anyway, i really want olevels to be over sooon, cause i feel so unprepared for exams. Anyway I hope I will like at least get into a course or something that will allow me to work and get a decent ppay. I was thinking of music but the requirements are crazy. pass 5 olevel sunjects, ABRSM or Trinity Guildhall Grade 6 or higher(which i dont have).Audition: Perform 2 contrasting pieces, one of which should be a post-1945 composition. Bring 2 original scores for the audition panel’s review. Complete an aural test equivalent to ABRSM Grade 6.


Haha, die liao.
photos!

Sepia colour filter:D

this is emo picture.

this is happy picture.

this is emo-till-cannot-emo picture . hahaha


Yay



Love,
JIEHUI 9:51 PM

If i were to die one day, not suicidal. Would you feel shocked or sad? Would my laughter be missed? Would there be tears or smiles. Oh screw sadness. I want to feel happy now.

I felt so sick today, like my nose was crazy. I ate huiting's wonder pill and I recovered instantly. (I MEAN IT) I managed to buy my cap today and I like it. And jasper's my cao and shoe model. I'm bag model. and I feel so unprepared for midyears, and I studied today. I am gnna study on sat, too. Hahaha, tmr also will. I feel so...woah. Shit me.


Forget it, I want to forget all the bad and sad things wish me luck.
Jiehui

8:17 PM

is prophecy coming true? I dont know. Is the world gnna end? I dont know.

I am happy about my oral.(: and dear jasper was being a commentator today, hilarious. Anyway sad things happen and unwanted things happen but ultimately nothing is solved with death. Dealth is ultimate but its not the time to. And I guess sometimes life seem to be a chore but you'll not know what's after the storm. Not every storm ends with a rainbow formed but you do learn things from it right? Never give up on yourself. The world may give up on you, but have faith in yourself. Believe you can do it. Believe that among those broken up hope you'll find a new one. And among the many people, you are special in your own way, and nobody can change that.


Positive thinking, I want to make everyone around me glad, I'll be glad as well.


Help me fulfill this goal of mine.

Jiehui 9:08 PM

not so much of a post, but some, i dont know what to call it.

I want to be a friend who understands how my friends feel, sometimes I really want to read people's minds espically when people turn emo. I hate the fact that no matter how hard I try, I can't please much people. I want to just grow older, like till i'm an adult, and get settled down with my love and then we'll live life like how we want it to be. And I want my friends to know that I really cherish them alot. I may not show, but its really like, flowing in my blood. And I want my dearest jasper to know I want to be there when he needs me. My friends too. It just struck me that, I dont know, nobody knows, when each of us are gnna die. And I want to make my mark, before I leave this world.


I see people dying inside, I feel like I am too. April's a bad month. really bad month.People carrying burdens which are obviously too heavy for them but they have no choice but to live on life with that little spark of hope in them. Couples aren't how they are anymore, and how the other person who felt that way tries to hide it from his or her other half and pretty sadly, succeeds. to end it all, look at my face and tell me what you see.

it just struck me. a pondering mind siped into despair. we come and we go. we live and we die. do we live for anything. do we die and be remembered.
fame is long. death is longer. i make my mark. death swollows us within. death is what lies at ends. A passing month, a sworowful month. A month of heavy hearts. we drag and we loaf we fall and we cry. we look up for hope.but we fail to find it.bonds between ends, notes that tie till the end. they break like the winds and its leaves.we hide behind a drape we cover with a smile. but who are we now. who am i.

Love,
Jiehui 4:23 PM

I just finished doing my stuff hahaha and I'm gnna meet jasper soon then we'll go with my mum for some play. Hahaha, and I really am not in the mood of shooping these days. Now that my knee is so painful it just make me even more moodless hahaha. I want to just talk and talk and talk and laugh and laugh. Its the best thing lah woah.


Oh anyway I really feel super disappointed with the interclass thing. Maybe my hopes were too high and oh yes. Fish please take care of yourself dont fall sick okay! though you alrd are but dont make it worse. feed on panadol fish! hahahaah(: and you can fucking stay at my house I fucking welcome you(LOL).



I'm going off soooon. I wish my day was better.
Ah well,
Jiehui 2:58 PM

I felt that today was good day but it turned out bad. Like, in the morning juanne said jiehuiyour phone found. then it was like woooahh and I really feel that its totally pointless for us to apologise in public because we were victims, too. I dunno lah just let this be.


I felt so pissed with sportsmanshipless people today, we were out of the game and my knee was like scraped, and it hurt big time. Dont people have any sense of pity at all? Why are you all so glad that we were out? Why did you say" good game meh?" when all we did was what all attackers would do, which is to get blockers away? I believe if we were to block you till that extent, you would have pushed too. we lost to 5n2, but they didn't even like look down. In fact they were like friendly okay. Ah dunno lah, your instincts I guess. And what added more was a biased referee. Whatever it doesnt really matter anymore I guess.
And way to go 5N3 ! FIRST AH whoo.hahahah.



Today rocked and sucked.
Love,
Jiehui 10:09 PM

People who has never felt the pinch of having their phone stolen would never understand. Having to wait for nothing till so late and in the end some people never show up. HAH you cant run away from this. Whoever you are guilty.

BIG TIME SUCKER.


Steal phone fun ah. go play some games lah, toy car or barbie doll. WOAH LAO EH! wait till one day you loose your phone lah. See HOW YOU !@#$%$ING FEEL!


my day is so ruined lah. SHIT YOU WHOEVER WHO TOOK IT! SHIT YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU!.



god bless YOU. 10:50 PM

Hey everybody. hahaha.

My dearest jasper played so well today, to me, at least. haha, and go 5N3 go win the champion for soccer. Haha, can one lah.(: jiayou!


I think Miss You is nice nice nice. here's the lyrics.
Hello there
The angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim
Of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally
If we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have halloween on christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home
And stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight

[Chorus]
Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me,
You're already the voice inside my head
(I miss you, miss you)

Haha, fishy said i love you to fish many times but fish didn't really hear her but ah well, I love fish, fishy's best friend. And haha, I'm the rainbow mushroom, the counterfeit one LOL. I have spores okay jieenenjie.:D

Ah there's so many freaking much tests this week. driving me mad mad mad mad. I fell asleep during physics test and then there was this painful mark on my face ouch.

To dearest Jasper Cheok, get the friggin top scorer thingy okay! even if the prize is just sweet(haha) just do your best kay. I'm supporting you all the way man, ALL THE WAY.whoo!( no you whoo.) <3


Lovelovelovelove,
fishy, jiehui 9:42 PM

I want to start afresh and forget everybody's past mistakes.i dowan to hate anyone now. Yay.


And today was boring, didn't do much lah. And I think after Olevels, my first aim is to go into Temasek Poly's Visual Communications course, if cant then I want go laselle and do music.(: If STILL can't then I'll go FMDS. hahaha. The latter sure can go in one lol. meanwhile i'll try to study hard lah.haha.


I'll go for my dinner. hahaha. someone tell me what rendezvous mean please. Mrs tay and the dictionary dont telly hahahah.

I love fish, not the fish fish but, fishy's most loved friend fish. LOL I think only huiting understands.

Love,
Jiehui 7:06 PM

I am back. Haha, gooded.
FRIDAY:

We stepped down, volleyballers. Woooaaahhh cried so badly, memories just kept coming back and its been three years. The laughter, the painful training were all so much missed. I really love them and vbers! go on okay. jisyou for all upcoming tournaments(:

SATURDAY:

1 year plus 1 month. 13 months! (: hahaha. Went out with dearest jasper and it was really fun. And talking our hearts out, laughing, sharing everything was nice. Haha, damn nice lah. HAPPY 13 MONTH DEAR! <3



today wll be boring ah, damn it.

Love,
JIEHUI 9:43 AM

I feel so tired now, but I dont feel like sleeping.

The horoscopes changed, earthlings. Now I'm a virgo, and Jasper you are a taurus. I'm looking forward to tomorrow but then again I"m not, yes its for soccer and the many stuff I want to tell jasper, no, why? I dont even know it myself. School just isnt that looked forward anymore. Ifeel like i'm doing things for nothing apparently.

Seriously now my aim is to make everyone around me happy. And I know that it isnt simple. I just hope life is great for everyone.


I want it to be.

*smile* tomorrow would be great. So will the days to come be. 10:44 PM

wow. I read so many quotes.

"I love school, but the studying part has to go"
"People change and things go wrong, but always remeber that life still goes on"
"I love you times infinity, plus one."
"LEt's just drive on the fact that, he's really hot."
"In the city filled with millions of people, you're the only one I see."
" I love you like, woah."
"Live for today, nobody is promised a tomorrow."
"dont worry about people in your past. There's a reason why thay were left there."
"if you were being unfaithful, hold up your finger and point it in your own face and reapeat after me." Fuck you""
"Smile when you're sad, it may make another sad person smile too."
"LEt's flip coins, if its heads we'll be together forever. If its tails, flip it again."
"sometimes what's on the outside does matter quite alot too."
"if he doesn't love you, he doesn't. Stop plucking flowers. You'll be fined."


Whoo. 10:12 PM

I can't stand fucking teachers who poke their nose into other people's lives. DAMN IT. Maybe its right, maybe its probably she was not able to find a boyfriend when she was our age and so she see couples now she not happy. WHAT SHE WANT SIA. she should have jolly well shut her mouth, benefits she and everyone else.

And I still cant accept the fact that I'm sec 4, Olevels, woah. Its like I have to sacrifice so many things to study when I dont even see a point. Its like I just have to go get my certs for music and then I can be a music teacher. I wanted to be an advertiser, but its a job that controls your life. I dont want to be sleeping so soundly at night then a call comes and i have to fly back to the offfice. I dont want that sort of well paying job. Its like music teacher, I can teach at home, earnings also quite good. And I have a music background already. I dont know what I should be pursuing lah. I can go private school too you know, like if I go furthur my music right now,NOW, I can go laselle, or if not I can go FMDS study, come out with a advance diploma in advertising and choose my route from there. But people tell me poly's funner. Sigh.

An I love Mrs Lai so freaking much. How I wish she was my mother, seriously. She's like the most understanding teacher in the world. Good teacher award.

I feel stressed now, and huiting yes you called me?:D hahaha. Soccer's on thurs and I'm excited.


Jasper has been a great personal coach<3 hahaha. I just have problems with my aim, and balance haha.

best couple award. its something that should be implemented.
JIEHUI. 9:33 PM

there are time when you just feel that the world turned its back on you and let me tell you, that is when you wil realise who are the people you would feel most comforted with.


Anyway, I bought blue shoes and black skinnes. And I feel like i'm gnna screw my exams. WOAH i'm so not prepared and the days are like flying lah. And card-igans bakuteh lunch! when when? :D hahaha. NExt tue and wed got interclass YAY yay and thank you dearest jasper for teaching me that little bit of soccer hahahaha(: I asked huiting to join me and play soccer on fri but she didnt want and I've yet to find out what she wanted to tell me. HAHAHA.



Byebye dust.
Jiehui 8:25 PM

haha, huiting you know what this means yes.


Anyway while waiting, I feel like exploding now. So i might as well type it here.

It freaking pains me to see this happen but hell, I cant stand your attitude. Its like you can be nice and mean in spilt seconds. Stop trying, call this jealousy? By all $$* means. BY___MEANS. I hate this lah damn it.


And sometimes its difficult to laugh as much as I did last time. Things change, I mean that's like as natural as how the earth orbits around the sun. I guess this is it, this is it.

I want to write my feelings in a bottle now and throw it in the sea, but I dont want to be wearing some suit doing CIP a few days later.


I have last words to say,
actually i dont. 11:36 PM

STUDYING WILL KILL YOU. learn to say no manxzxzzxzxz.

HAHAHA. whoo thankyou ladies and gentlemen I do not have a $%^&ing clue as to what I am supposed to do for ss. Anyway, I currently have no mood to post any photos so please wait hahaha:D


Anyway days that passed were fun. hahaha. And now that I know, Ang mo kio is seperated from Bishan by a drain. Hahaha.


I lost my wallet,heh
Happy April Fool.
JIEHUI 10:20 PM