DRUGDOSEDFLIES.TUMBLR.COM


okay byebye.
4:22 PM

PARTY'S THIS FRIDAY OMGXZXZ I CANT WAIT.



I cant do it I cant do it I cant do it I cant do it. I just cant. I can't make myself buck up in my studies neither can I make myself quit smoking neither can I just see how my life's getting ruined and not do a shit about it.



Fuck this is getting on my nerves. Pain in the ass. Why cant they make cigs unharmful and why can everyone just be stupid and there's no such thing as school?



Nvm, i shall enjoy on fri first hahahaha. WHOOOOOOOO luv parting with pple in formal clothes. I wanna see desmond get drunk hahahaha. 1:04 AM

Im back.


You knw, its like a new beginning. I've screwed my life pretty much to the maximum. My studies are a gonner. Im like a pathetic olevels holder and nth else. Met gary today and he was like " she only goes to sch once a week" And i rly dont know what im doing now. SHould I choose to trust in it 100% and half fuck my studies or should i get a dip to play safe.


Idk, I srsly cant stand it anymore. And for all that i do i sincerely apologise.



Wtf man, Im dying, they say my lips are blackz and imhaving a very bad throat and a very blocked nose. OMG why the fuck must aall the retarded stuff has to happen together.



Ftw, fuck the world. 2:19 AM

HI FUCK HOW CAN CRAIG BE KICKED OUT OF CHIODOS YOU TELL ME!



Chiodos is going to crash, without craig chiodos is gnna be the nest escape the fate without roonie.




How disappointing


I LOVE YOU CRAIG OWENS.


In the moment that she left the room
The album started skipping
Goodbye to beauty, shared with the ones that you love
A shadow that has fallen over this town
A shadow that has fallen over this town

Attention, all of my worst critics
Who were once the best of friends
You're all just crows on the power lines

Into romantic speculations
Into romantic speculations

Sightings of shape shifting
Dissolved into the darkness
A final opinion is of less value
Than an appreciation of,
And tolerance for obscurity

Theatrics, all made up and pianos all playing at once through the dust
I found it difficult in my excitement to keep from floating off
To keep from floating off and off and off

Into romantic speculations
Into romantic speculations

Sightings of shape shifting
Dissolved into the darkness
A final opinion is of less value
Than an appreciation of,
And tolerance

A shadow that has fallen over this town [x6]
[In background:]
I'll rest on nets made by spiders fed on drug dosed flies
The spider sings alone
The spider sings alone
He paced the room with hurried steps
And placed his hands upon his head
As if he were afraid
His thoughts were bursting from his brain

Sightings of shape shifting
Dissolved into the darkness
A final opinion is of less value
Than an appreciation of,
And tolerance

Sightings of shape shifting
Dissolved into the darkness
A final opinion is of less value
Than an appreciation of

As if he were afraid!


1:46 PM

WHY MUST OUR DREAMS BE CRASHED.


Remember how we use to want to live in that big house and drive our fav cars and want to be sciencetists/doctors/lawyers? But when we reach sec 3/4 the cold truth hits us hard, really hard. Doctors are earning 4k a mth instead of 10k a mth now. Our studies suck then slowly we let our dreams just die away. We just ALLOWED it to disappear. WHY.


We all have choices. WE can CHOSE to continue to live our dreams. We can continue to fight hard. Not in our passion but in a way that can work out for us, that we know, it can make our dreams come true. I believe choices are more important than effort, think about it yourself. And that if we want to make it big in life, we dont talk about passion. We dont talk about passion when it comes to earning money. If you're given a choice to work at a place you like and you love the job and get paid 3k and i ask you to arrange tables and chairs but i pay you 10k you want? BUT IS ARRANGING TABLES AND CHAIRS YOUR PASSION? I believe not.



Guys dont let opportunity slip by. Really, just go for it. Rebuild your dream and fight hard for it. Fight very hard. 3:17 PM

Hi im finally back.


My ___ schools starts in 2 weeks im dead meatzxz.


My godmom just bought me two dresses from malaysia. Though I find it weird looking i still thanked her and hugged her anyway. I mean there was this night when I really thought about everything I ever did in my life. I felt that I've wasted it away, I stay at home and FORCED myself to use the computer because everyone else did so in sec 1. Then it was friendship and breakups and heart ache and joy. But I left out the most important person in the world (other then you la chua! :D) ; my mother. What a bitch I was to save her name as "*****" instead of "mummy" in my phonebook. btw the stars are her name. What kind of a daughter am i? When I was young she cleaned my ass after I shit, she fed me when Im playing some retarded plucking apple game when I was young. What happened? Why did I become like that? Just because, i thought i did not have enough freedom. We quarrelled. But baby made me realise I had the more freedom then most girls do. I just changed her name to mummy in my phonebook just now.

I felt so good when I replied her sms with" enjoy dinner mum bye" and she was happy too. Because previously when I see her msg i'll delete without reading it. Fucked up i know. She comes home every night after work and she still does the housework. ALL MOTHERS ARE LIKE THAT. YOUR mum, wakes up 8am and works till 5pm and after that she does ohusework and watch an hour of tv. DONT SHE DESERVE BETTER? She slogged her life for you dear friends. Doesnt she deserve btr?

I want to do mine proud. Mom give me 5 years. 5 years and I will give you the life you deserve.


How about you, your mum or dad, do they deserve btr? Think about it yourself.




Bye I have tons to do. RMRMRMRMRMRMRMRMRM ftw. 1:06 AM

Just came back from work like an hour ago. Its getting boring.


And anyway, meeting weiling tmr! YESSS HOPEFULLY THERE WONT BE A RAID IN GEYLANG CAUSE WE WANNA GO BUY CIGGS SO PLEASE POLICE TMR OFF DAY KKKK. :D


Ah shucks ling can you pls call me i dont know where to meet you hahaha. And charmaine dion el cherron when are we gnna go outzxzx. Ling saturday cannot come lehhh.



Why are some people so gross these days. Like, really gross. Ah eff it, not worth my attention.



I am a broke kid now I barely have enough money to eat and drink. 12:57 AM